chalk it up
"Pinterest, Instagram, and the like can be great but I can also find it crippling to the heart, mind, and soul. It first becomes a crutch to the artistic part of the mind, eventually stunting your growth and characteristics that make you, you. Don't get me wrong, I love Pinterest. So many creative and talented people to draw inspiration from. It makes this world much smaller and allows us to connect and see things we wouldn't see/learn otherwise. And I would be lying to myself if I said I don't care about social media... I want followers, I want people to "like", "share", and "pin" my stuff. I hope I inspire you enough to make you want to be apart of my family's journey. BUT relying on it so much is not healthy, speaking from my own experience.
Art used to be so therapeutic to me. Today I felt that again for the first time in a long time. I looked up no inspiration. I looked up no work to recreate. I looked up no words to write. I just allowed myself to find it within me, to trust my mind, to trust my eye, and to just go with it, even if it wasn't perfect. Do I personally feel like this is my best work? No... we human beings can be hard on ourselves BUT it is absolutely perfect because it is mine, I did it, and I'm proud of myself for stepping outside of the current box that I've created for myself the past few years.
If you're reading this and saying "I'm not artistic" or "I have to look at something to create it", I dare you to stretch yourself. Please don't put so much pressure on yourself to be "perfect". It's much healthier to be daring, confident, and "imperfect". I'm not just talking about art... maybe art isn't your thing. God has given each and everyone of us gifts. If you have the same experience as me, you will find it freeing. Besides, God sees you as perfectly made in His eyes and that's all that really matters anyway, right? Let us not be afraid of failing but excited to make discoveries!
To dream, to create, to be. Your turn."
Journal Entry, November 30, 2015